InsaneJournal

Current location:	some hotel
Current mood:	accomplished
Current music:	DANCING ON ME « dj webstar ft. jim jones, juelz, & remo

...Great Oppertunities...DALE!

One day in Manhattan while Taj and I were seeing the sights this cat came up to me trying sell some sick ass decks. I don't skateboard but Taj tries to so I thought about grabbing one for him. It was too big for him to handle. Instead I asked this cat who was he selling to so he pointed me out to this small office right in East ny. Brooklyn. This company is just starting up out here but mega extra major over in L.A. & Oakland. That's Cali, dig? So dude and I were conversing about the prospects of various art work to be viewed on different mediums. Myself it really doesn't matter where I draw, paint on. As long as there is enough space then I'm straight. He hit me off with an appointment card to meet up with his bosses sometime early last week. I took the train out that way instead of hitching rides off my partnas and got to the office. Man, soon as the kid came through I see this space that had nothing but skate decks, and other boarding accessories. One of that dude's bosses was straight up surf dude. You know how they look? Right and he had a nice hand with the pencil as well. We spoke about the company's goals, how they wanted to expand more into that culture in nyc since I know more than few boogie on some boards. They were looking for signature looks as far as the art aspect is concerned. So I was digging a lil' sumpthin' from the presentation. So glad it wasn't formal. I hate interviews because their so constricting to me. I can't give an employer my five cents and personality in an atmosphere like that. Check though, I spoke to his art director who has a team back west. Lucky me had the opportunity to show him my unfinished portfolio. Its mostly photographs of the things I've tagged or painted. There are some digital pieces there but it's limited because of my lesser knowledge with the proper applications. I stay with Illustrator most times if I feel the need to convert hardline sketches to the mac. Yeah so he flipped through the joints digging everyone of them which surprised me to be honest. I wasn't going in there fully confident because as a person who knows about their own work, you are your worst critic. So anything you do might feel below a five out ten. Brett is who initially pushed me to the idea of coming out here to work with them since they needed a fresh mind going. So why not? Nothing was really popping off back in New York. I was working dumb long hours for less pay than I was entitled to. Besides my tio was cheap as fuck.


These spontaneous moves aren't my bag but it had to happen. I'm a young cat trying to make it out in this world for my son and also myself. I put one long term opportunity behind me because of the pressures in that environment was messing up the focus I had going on. Anyone who has many responsibilities which do not include yourself can say that it's a rough deal to go along with. Nothing is ever easy, and it really does not get easier when you have someone dependent on you. Like I was discussing situations with Yaya on those late nights when sleep was unavailable. Normally we're not the type to get along because of whatever. Though staying with her for the short period of time has put her in a new light, I feel. Its unfortunate that we had to be raised in seperate households since that did contribute to the disconnection that was between us. I'm the baby, yeah but having your older siblings around is a want. For me it was. I was lucky enough to even be raised by someone period. So yeah we talked heavy on Taj's moms and how the stunts she pulls isn't fair. It's not when you look at it. And those that know of the situation will say the same thing. How can a mother not want to have nothing to do with their child? Her peoples never slapped that shit into her head about it. It makes me wonder, do they not care as well either? I'm like whatever at this point because I reached out to her since she hadn't made some effort to see the kid she birthed. We had it out over the hotline for the simple fact that I was willing to head back to Chicago in order for Taj to see that bitch before we were to fly to L.A. Nothing was resolved from that phone call besides more frustration added to the dislike I have for that bird. On all levels, this is the one thing I would have never expected to go through. Look I'm barely twenty-two out this mug, and my hands are full. Man, I don't complain much really except for that fact. Why did I end up picking her? On some positive moves right now. I'm grateful anyways that big sis looked out for us when she could have pointed down with the finger trying tell right from wrong.


Don't get it twisted, I can do the same because no one has room to feel as if they're perfect. The world isn't like that. By no means. What would I seem like, if I walked around as if I'm that dude? Too much of a contradiction going on. One of those days was Mother's day? I called Karen's dippy ass up to wish her that sentiment. She was too thrilled to hear my voice. I can't say much bad about her but that's the moms so you love her no matter what. I think Yaya went to go see her, not positive. I sent her some recent pics of Taj since she asked about him much. Glad she doesn't shun what's part of her family either. I'm waiting for father's day to roll around. Too many ideas going on about that. I gotta get Pops something for sticking his neck out for me, for all of these years. Plus being supportive with his grandson. Dude know he loves him some lil man. Back to what it does. Brett and his team are looking out heavy so we should have a decent place to stay by next week. For now it's just a hotel I have to pay out of pocket but will be supplemented on it soon enough. I started on a few joints during the late nights, but I have yet to finish them since this kid has been off the wall lately. I hope he gets used to it really. Damn the one thing I can say is that I don't have to worry about a babysitter during clocked hours. He'll come with and we can hang out like we usually do since PARALLEL VERSE is nothing but a skate store-warehouse and offices that are unconventional. Nothing formal about the shit at all. I have yet to take on the sights of this place but it's looking dumb nice already. You know I'll have to fine a mami out here to connect with on one of those levels. My partna in crime will help with that hopefully. Anyways let me refresh this ink and head back to what I do so well. ONE