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Birthright · JOSIAH DOMINIC VARGAS ·
Also Known As · JO, JODIE, JD, JOKER, DOMINO, JV, VARSITY, JOSH, LIL SANTOS, LIL FATS, YUNGUNN, & PAISELY JR ·
Born · MARCH 4TH 1987 ·
Place of Birth · CLEVELAND, OH ·
Sex · MALE ·
Ethnic Background · AFRO-DOMINICANO-SICILIAN-GERMAN ·
Weight · 170 ·
Height · 6'2" ·
Appearance · VARIOUS TATTOOS - SCARS - LOBES PIERCED ·
Sexual Preference · STRAIGHT · Status · SINGLE POPPO ·
Education · [ George Washington High ] HIGH SCHOOL DIPLOMA - [ COLUMBIA COLLEGE CHICAGO ] major [ BFA ILLUSTRATION sophomore ] minor [ BLACK WORLD STUDIES ] schooling on hold ·
Occupation · PATIENT TRANSPORTER @ COOK COUNTY HOSPITAL WAITER @ RUBEN'S GRILLE - FOOTLOCKER · FREELANCE GRAPHIC ARTIST ·
Hometown · CHICAGO, IL ·
Present Home · HARLEM ( Manhattan ), NYC · WEST LA, CA
Transporting · 00' HONDA CIVIC, MTA ·
The Good · PAPER PLANES, NOTEBOOKS, BLACKBOOK, DUFFEL BAGS, SPALDINGS, Wii PAPER MARIO, DUNKS, SPAM, PERSONAL INDEPENDENCE, MUFFLES, PENCIL ERASERS, BASKETBALL COURTS, ELEVATOR TAG, BARS, SHOOTERS, SPRITE, CHILD SUPPORT, MOUF BREATHERS ( toothpicks ), DIGITAL CABLE, DOMINOES, WATCHES, GRAPHIC NOVELS, FATHER & SON TIME, PARENTHOOD, SUMMER BREEZE, FALL, APRIL SHOWERS, PARTY CRASHING, FAMILY GET TOGETHERS, LESSONS IN ATTRACTION, DUNKIN DONUTS, ICEES, EASTER SUNDAY, BLACKSPLOITATION FLICKS, JUMPS ( jumpoffs ), DIGITAL PHOTOGRAPHY & PING PONG ·
The Bad · FAMILY COURT, FAMILIA UNACCEPTENCE, PREJUDICE, THIRD SHIFT, MOVING THE DECEASED, APPLE TURNOVERS, CAP GUNS, SICK KIDS, BLISTERS, PAPER CUTS, PAPERS, LATE ASSIGNMENTS, BAD MOTHERS, STAPLE GUNS, SCRUBS, SCALLYWAGS, BIRDS, UNTRUSTWORTHY PEEPS, SECOND HAND SMOKE, CONTACT HIGH, FIST FIGHTS, MISSED SHOWS, PERFORMANCE ANXIETY ( uh... ), SUNFLOWER SEEDS, CAKE MIX, CLEANING TOYS, BM BULLSHIT, LATE CHILD SUPPORT, LAWYER FEES, POLICE SCANNERS, BUGGING JUMPS, MARKED UP WALLS, LOW PAYROLL, CREDIT UNIONS, CARROTS, BB PELLETS, CREDIT CARDS, UNRELIABLE BABYSITTERS, AND PUSHED TO THE EDGE ·
Family · taj lee vargas ( june 30th 2006 ) | SON, karen adams | MOM, santos FATS vargas jr. | POPPO, tatyana vargas | SISTER, benny vargas | BROTHER, ruben vargas | UNCLE, cynthia vargas-wright | AUNT, angel vargas | COUSIN, yadhira vargas | COUSIN, michelle vargas | COUSIN, ronnie vargas | UNCLE, timothy vargas | COUSIN, joel vargas | COUSIN, ava vargas | GRAM, santos vargas sr. | GRAMPO, valerie adams | AUNT, richard adams | UNCLE, raquel adams | COUSIN ·
Other · crystal rosario | BABYMOMS - EX, ricky houston | FRIEND, faison giles | FRIEND, cano west | FRIEND, jeff bateman | HOMIE, veronica murphy | BOP', kyle ross | HOMIE, anthony michaels | HOMIE, dana rivers | CO-WORKER ·

sketches WHEN THINGS ARE HEAVY ON HIS MIND

takes TIME OUT TO SPEND WITH HIS ONLY CHILD

often HAS A PROBLEM WITH PEOPLE TELLING HIM HOW TO RUN DELEGATE HIS OWN LIFE

used TO TURN TO ALCOHOL TO COPE WITH HIS CHILDHOOD, DRINKS SPARINGLY NOW

has A SANDWICH NAMED AFTER HIM BY A NEIGHBORHOOD DINER

doesn't HAVE A CLOSE RELATIONSHIP WITH HIS MOM OR HER SIDE OF THE FAMILY

has NO IDEA OF HOW TO CONVINCE HIS CHILD'S MOTHER TO BE MORE ACTIVE IN THEIR SON'S LIFE

eats CEREAL DRY IN A BAGGY, LIKE SMACKS OR HONEY NUT CHEERIOS

collects DIFFERENT PAIRS OF SNEAKERS, AND FREEHANDS CUSTOM SNEAKS ON THE SIDE

has NEVER BEEN FURTHER FROM CHICAGO OTHER THAN NYC, BUT LIKES THE IDEA OF TRAVEL

wants TO CONTINUE HIS HIGHER EDUCATION BUT IS CURRENTLY TAKING A BREAK FROM COLLEGE TO PURSUE OTHER OPPERTUNITIES

hangs OUT WITH ANY TYPE OF PERSON. DOESN'T MATTER THEIR BACKGROUND AND ETC.

does MURAL ART TO EXCLUSIVE OFFERS

teaches HIS SON HOW TO DEFEND HIMSELF EVEN AT A YOUNG AGE

thinks HIS FATHER IS THE WORSE AND BEST INFLUENCE THAT HAS HAPPENED TO HIS LIFE

wants TO OWN A BETTER CAR IN THE NEAR FUTURE BUT DOESN'T MIND USING PUBLIC TRANSPORATION

builds PAPER AIRPLANES IN HIS BORED MOMENTS

secretly DESIGNING A GRAPHIC NOVEL BASED ON HIS LIFE AND THOSE HE GREW UP WITH

can DANCE FAIRLY WELL BUT IS MAINLY A LAID BACK INDIVIDUAL

saves UP MONEY FOR RAINY DAYS, EMERGENCIES, AND FOR HIS SON'S EDUCATION

What is your name? · Josiah Dominic Vargas.


How old are you? · Your boy will be twenty-two real soon. Real soon, feels me?


Where were you born and raised? · Karen, mom for the politically correct people, birthed me in Cleveland. This was the time she split off from my dad. Headed back to her family out there, but under tough circumstances, she moved back to Chicago. Really, I grew up here in the Windy city.


Describe your family. Include parents, siblings, spouses and children if applicable. · Pretty much the family is one big hot dirty nasty mess. That's the closest I can say that they all are in a nutshell. You have poppo who's a mack in his own right still tossing pyt's around like he does his socks. My man, come on. You're too old for that. He's a cool old man, no doubt. Real cool. Great man to depend on. Taught me what it is coming up. Never really censored what life was from girls, sex, being a real man, and so on. My man has this crazy stutter when he gets into something. That's just an indicator of how passionate he is about what he discusses. Mom? Damn where to start on that lady. She was an aight moms but was too busy trying to be all her children's friends instead of the parent so we got over on her a lot. I never lived too long with her for that main fact. Poppo caught on about her parenting and noticed how my ass wasn't holding the role of the child so he got that custody of myself since my brother and sister were too far in age. Yeah so mom is real OC type housewife without having the type of funds. Always living beyond her means to fit in with a group of bitches that don't like her. You think she got the picture yet? Nope. I love her though, just don't like her. Stop trying so hard and just be you. Mom. There's Benny. Bobby. BENITO! That's my dude. Older brother who was the first to make something out of himself. He's a man to look up to really. Never got caught up in the fast life our dad has and proved much to his peers that he was about to be something. He's the reason why I stopped checking out on life and switch up my style to have better for not only myself but my little man-man. YAYA! That's my sis who I cannot stand. Snooty for no reason. How can you be snooty when you don't have the income to be so? She's like a mini Karen but has the temperament of our dad. She's ok until she starts pointing trying to preach on how you should live when she's less than perfect. Mami you are not better than us. Then you have the rest of the familia who I won't touch on. Everyone has strained relationships because of some deep secret, which I will find out soon. My grandparents on my dad's side are straight. Mom's? They can't stand us or my dad so we never close. Its the whole skin color thing background thing. Don't discriminate. This is a new day and age. Their lost. Lets skip my son's mom and just mention the son. Taj. I swear young moms need to learn how to appropriately named their kids. If it were my way I would have named him. A decent name, something lil man would be proud of. People would be accepting of my kid. I know how society is. He'll be three this year. Three and on his bi. Bright dude, just mischeivious as hell. I have custody of him since his mom was on one of those I'm too young for this... trips. That's coo'. Just to let you know, homegirl? He'll be taken care of and you will contribute one way or the other. Great amount of money and support went into that turn out. Its for the best I feel. The sadness about it all is that lil man doesn't see her often. That's how terrible she is. I won't further jump into that. What's good is that, my kid is cared for and loved. Word.


If married, how did you meet your spouse? · Not married, and not ever. Never see a point in it. Neither parent is married so why go through it only to end up divorced or unhappy. Your wife gotcha by the nuts boy!


What is your occupation? How did you come to choose this occupation? · I work at this county hospital and will be moving to a private hospital soon as my references are on the correctness. I needed a job, been through the part timers and had my tio look out for me. Took about four to five months getting that position. Basically I transport patients. Move them from er to rooms, or whatever. Sometimes it calls for transporting dead bodies to the morgue after they're called. But you know, I'm in school so, that's another job. True?


What are your hobbies and interests? Do they help define you as a person? If so, how and why? · Hobbies and interests? Oddly I'm into taking flicks. Not hard about it but its a good hobby to get into for that side money. Weddings, and other special events. Get it in like that. It was started as a youngster but not as much now because of priorities. I also lean into graphical drawing. Its not heavy but the drawing aspect allows me to move my thoughts in a free space. I guess you can say it defines me by showing more than one side than most people see. By nature I'm a silent guy. Not exactly silent but more or less introverted. That extra shit is for those who like to show off. I'm not about that at all. Laid back, and easy going, feel me? One of these days my interests will make paper. Graphic novels have those cult followings. Then there's the sports of course. Baseball and basketball is all me. Played through out my life and still do. I think sports builds a healthy competitive edge and develops a sportsmanship on and off the court or diamond. Good traits to have for a person.


Describe your religious affiliation or lack thereof. · Christian and what not. I know my dad and his people were heavily devote Catholics but he never onced pushed us to practice like he had to growing up. Its instilled of who God is and all that. I believe but don't practice like go to church and what not. Not my cup of tea really. Don't get me wrong, there is a belief.


Describe your political affiliation or lack thereof. · Liberal. Everyone I know are democratic supporters. The funny thing about this is that my dad is a bit political know all. That's just him. He can tell you all the representatives in our city, who's the mayor, who's part of the counsel, and so on. Real big about that, not me. Its not that I don't care, I just don't have the mindful to keep track. I know I should but whatever. All that matters is that I vote when its available to do so. OBAMA/BIDEN! Hahah.


What is your sexuality? Describe your first foray into this sexuality. · What type of question? I'm straight and have a thing for women, duh? The earliest foray? What the hell is a foray? Right, oh Poppo was always into movies. Old seveny flicks and ones before. The old actresses that the new ones try to emulate now and days. I would have to say the first time I ever watched a Foxy Brown movie. And when those movies were released, nudity was nothing full frontal and all. Being as my pops didn't care what was showed he let me watch that shit. I was say ten at the time? Maybe younger but boy, Pam Grier? Back then? Chichis galore, man. That's what you get when you a grown man? I think pops had a time trying to explain that to a kid. So I was down ever since. I still think she's fine. Don't tell anyone but I catch The L Word sometimes just to see mami in action. Hahah.


What are your sexual interests? Do you have any turn ons or turn offs? · This just gets personal along the way? Aight. I'm a young dude, so you know how you got this drive just to bone every and any chick that comes by. I'm attracted to slightly older women for the mere fact you learn mad mad mad shit from them. So me trying to get with some young chick like my age is sort of a turn off. They have this fairytale comples unless you run into a bird who's been around a few times. Man forget that, stop being soft and get it in quickly. I would go into further detail, but my pops taught me to keep your shit to yourself. A true player never kisses and tell.. Now that has me thinking. Man what type of player is you? Nah, on the real. Realness is a turn on. I can't get into fake this and artificial that. Small shit some chicks do will have a soldier standing tall if you catch my drift. It depends but nasty ass hygiene is a numero uno bad turn off. I'll leave it at that.


Do you have kids? Do you want any? · Yup. I have one child. A mistake I felt at first. You know, not being ready at that age. Even though I was legally an adult it still put a damper on my plans. I don't want any, soon. So make sure the chicks you associating with on a physical level is on the pill.


Do you have pets? Do you want any? · Actually I had a dog growing up but he caught the deep sleep when he bit someone. Right now, no pets because the apartment I reside in doesn't allow dogs nor cats. I thought about purchasing a hamster or reptile for the kid but I heard reptiles and frogs pass on shit. So we'll see.


Describe a single event from your life that has affected you greatly? This can be positive or negative. · There were a few actually but one that actually changed my life for both the positive and negative would have been the birth of my kid. The idea about giving up your selfish need for another person isn't the concept that people want to understand but they have no choice. I won't lie, at first when I found out that Taj's mother was knocked up, I was against it because I knew the type of person she was. Reminded me much like my mother and knew she wasn't good on wanting to change her life in order to be for Taj. The negative about it would be having to do all the duties on my own. There was that custody legal issue that took months to go in my favor so money was highly spent in having the best representation I could. Family court is wack but the outcome of all that is that it has made me a better person and a forgiving person. I don't like the bitch, but only remain civil when time comes for her to see her kid. Its just sad how a mother doesn't want to be in her son's life. You would think it would be the other way around. I'm grateful though, feel me? It could be a very messed up situation but the little dude is a-okay.


What were you like as a child? · Real speedy. Never able to be still. No I wasn't ADD'n it. Things around me never stimulated my mind besides sports or being around my siblings. I calmed down when those teen years crept up on me. But before that time, you can say I had my fair share of trouble. Stealing candy and shit from the store then catching the belt for it. Great times.


What were you like as a teenager? · I was just like any typical teen. We have that mindset like everything we say is right. We know everything at that age. I gave my parents a hard time, thinking I was grown. You know smelling myself like nothing was wrong. Boy was I wrong. That part never hits you until you find yourself in particular situations. I won't put my business out there like that, but there was a time when I would have ended up on the wrong side of the tracks like one of my relatives.


Name a single article of media (be it song, book, poem, tv show or movie) that speaks to you personally and explain why it does so. · For the longest I've studied that Esco' cd. You know Illmatic? Not that I was heavy into the brother when I was young but more recently I caught a hold onto this one joint, Life's A Bitch. I feel like that one song was almost universal, depsite the man was speaking on his surroundings. Everyone has to know life is one whirlwind and no one never knows how it will turn out. It can be a cruel one, its just a matter of dealing with your situation, then its over. Make room for the new and out with the old. The cycle repeats itself.


Do you consider yourself a good person? Why or why not? · Most times, yeah. I don't see myself having hate in my blood. For what? People who do, have nothing else on their hands and that's all they do. Hate, scheme, and what ever else they could in order to make the next person's life hell. Mad times I'll retain myself when its dealing with my son's mom. I know how she is and can get. But do I get on that ignorant mentality because I want her to suffer? Nah. That's what karma is for. Other than that I stick to my duties. Care for my dependent, and be straight with it. That's all I can explain. No time to be a messed up person.

» ...Made my usual gun check, safety off, come on Frank. The moment is here, take your fuckin' hood off and tell the driver to stay put. Fuck them niggaz on the block they shook, most of them won't look. They frontin', they no crooks and fuck up they own juks. Look out for Jackson 5-0 cause they on foot. Straight ahead is the doorway, see that lady that lady with the shopping cart. She keep a shottie cocked in the hallway. Damn she look pretty old Ghost, she work for Kevin, she 'bout seventy seven. She paid her dues when she smoked his brother in law at his bosses' wedding. Flew to Venezuela quickly when the big fed stepped in. 3 o'clock, watch the kids, third floor, last door. You look paranoid that's why I can't juks with you. Why? Why you behind me leery? Shakey Dog stutterin', when you got the bigger cooker on you. You is a crazy motherfucker, small Hoodie dude. Hilarious move, you on some Curly, Moe, Larry shit. Straight parry shit, Krispy Kreme, cocaine, dead bodies, jail time you gon' carry it. Matter of fact, all the cash, I'm a carry it... « FRIEND TURNED INFLUENCIAL TROUBLE | open

» ...We don't drive X5's we give 'em to baby-mammas. Push the big top that shake like the Kansas, chickens snackbox. I get it crackin' when I'm backing out the garage. A 360 drop ferrar, shutdown manhattan. Bucket low, like fuck it, though...BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH. I'LL SHOW YOU HOW TO DO THIS SON... « THE INFAMOUS NO GOOD BABYMOMMA | open

» ...Don't have to say you're beautiful. You've got plenty other guys to say those words for you. And i don't have to say you run the show. All it takes is a word, I lose control for you. I know you're not my girlfriend, but I swear that I love you. Baby I do I know you're not my girlfriend, but I swear that I love you. Baby I do. I don't have to say you stole my heart 'cause anything I have I freely give to you. And I knew right from the very start. That the only place I belong is next to you. I know you're not my girlfriend, but I swear that I love you. Baby I do I know you're not my girlfriend, but I swear that I love you. Baby I do. Even thru all the ups and downs. You can't stop the way I feel now. Even thru the storm. Joy & pain. I won't change, still feel the same. Anytime you call. I don't care. No matter the reason. I'll be there. Constantly on my mind and that's why I'm hoping you will be my valentine... « UNEXPECTANT LOVE INTEREST | open

» ...I got some bad news this morning. Which in turn made my day. When this someone spoke I listened. All of a sudden, has less and less to say. Ohhhhhh how could this be? All this time, I've lived vicariously. Who's gonna save my soul now?. Who's gonna save my soul now? How will my story ever be tollllld now? How will my story be tollllld now. And maybe it's a little selfish. All I have is the memory. Yet I never stopped to wonder-ahhhhh. Was it possible you were hurtin worse than me. Still my hunger turns to greeeeed. Cause what about what I neeeeeed?! And OHHHH! Who's gonna save my soul now? Who's gonna save my soul now? Ohhhh I know I'm out of control now. Oooh-oooh, tired enough to lay my own soul down... « TROUBLED STRANGER/FRIEND FROM THE PAST | open

» ...I don't know why I don't know why. She keeps on passin' me by. Maybe her eye is on just some other guy. And I'll forever be that fella on the side. She passes me by. As I hopped off the train this shawty caught my eye. I asked her for her name she gave me no reply. She left me standing there with arrows in my heart. But yet and still I'm wanting her. And later on that week while driving in my car. I coulda sworn I saw that shawty walking down the road. I thought she passed at me while I was staring from a far. Or is just my young mind wishing. I don't know why I don't know why. She keeps on passin' me by. Maybe her eye is on just some other guy. And I'll forever be that fella on the side. She passes me by. It gets so confusing this game. I met a lot of girls but never felt this way. I get strange pleasure though from going through this pain. And like a ghost I'm haunting her. I often fantasize about walking hand in hand. But I don't know her name or if she's got a man. And the only thing that gives me hope to stay. Is maybe one day she'll notice me... « CRUSHES | open, open, open, open...

» ...And it's on, up and down she like to ride on top. Fast, prayin that the condom pop. That's foul, but fuck it it's all hood to me. Now Hollywood's been real real good to me. Now who gives a fuck if a bitch just ain't shit. In the whip she gives CPR to my dick. You losin 'em baby, get 'em up quick. This role play I'm really gettin into this shit. In the telly on all fours I'm ridin that horse. Screamin WOO HA! till my voice is lost. Call me 50 call me daddy you can call me the boss. My dick XXL you can call me The Source. You can lie 'bout my performance and give bad reviews. A quickie suppose to be quick bitch I kept on my shoes. Oh you thought we had a love thing girl you confused. Don't listen to the gossip it's never ever true. They say I do things that I never ever do... « FLINGS/JUMPOFFS TURNED BITTER | open

» ...I wanna go to college for the rest of my life. Sip Banker's Club and drink Miller Lite. On Thirsty Thursday and Tuesday Night Ice. And I can get pizza a dollar a slice. So fill up my cup, let's get fucked up. I'm next on the table, who want what? I am champion at beer pong. Allen Iverson, Hakeem Olajuwon. Don't even bounce, not in my house. Better hope you make it otherwise you naked. Time isn't wasted when you're getting wasted. Woke up today and all I could say is. Um, that party last night was awfully crazy I wish we taped it. I danced my ass off and had this one girl completely naked. Drink my beer and smoke my weed but my good friends is all I need. Pass out at 3, wake up at 10, go out to eat then do it again. Man, I love college, ay... « SCHOOLMATES FROM COLLEGE | open

» ...So until I reach what I came here to find. Along with inner peace, life will always be a grind. One day I'll be what the world want me to be. I was born to be super duper Scott. The one bad bitches call super duper lame. Now super duper fame gives me super duper brains. 86 to Cape, but I'm super duper high. Soarin' passed the moon I'm super duper lonely guy. Down and out, so I'm out and down and lookin' for a substance to drown in (hey). For even in hell, I still have faith. To one day be free with my father at the gates. But make no mistakes, I'll show you what time takes. To be a success on earth, mixed with all the hate. I stand on my pivot, my life you could not live it. For the things that I've seen have been too damn explicit... « GENERAL | tones, mauricep, taty, open, open, open, open, open, open...